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Most Recent Confessions on "hopelessness"...
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I have an embarassing confession.. I'm somewhat young (Lets just say, I'm barely old enough to drive and drink.) Yet I feel emotionally detatched from the girls around me - that is to say relationship wise..
I have a few female friends but I really don't see them as anything other than good friends.. which has brought up some embarassing confrontations as I'm sure you can imagine.
The real problem is, I've always wanted to live in America (I'm living in the UK, currently) and I met this really amazing girl about three or four years ago online and we've talked every day.. We were simply best of friends but I truly love her, and she feels the same way, I've been planning for the last year to move so I can be with her (which has been a nightmare) but I'm scared to tell my friends.. and I haven't seen her for a month or two.. as she's taking a break internet-wise (this is a long story) which is worrysome, but I trust her.. at the same time I feel maybe I'm chasing a pipe dream, my family probably wouldn't understand this..
I've been keeping it a secret.. they're aware that I'm attempting to immigrate, but they don't know the big reason why (outside of private medical reasons) and I just.. I don't know if I'm making the right choice.. I feel like if I don't take this gamble and make the move I'll regret it all my life.. but on the other hand I don't know if I can survive over there.. getting a job and a place to stay is a problem right now.. specially when getting the money to just make the jump is frustrating.. I guess I'm just using this site to vent, I apologize if I'm not very coherent, it's 7:30am right now and I need to go to bed.
I really need help.. and wherever I look I see closed doors.. there's more to this story but I've already waisted enough of your time.
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